cottonsox

I’ve had another little mental health dip, I’m not going to ..

Added 2025-06-09 12:49:37 +0000 UTC

I’ve had another little mental health dip, I’m not going to dwell on it though; There’s too much bad stuff going on in the world right now for me to broadcast complaints; I want to be a positive distraction! Yes.

Something positive…

I am feeling pretty good about my body, I’ve been working out and eating good and I dare say, I think I have actually recovered from my eating disorder! I have been being healthy in a healthy way as opposed to “being healthy” in a thinly veiled eating disorder way! It’s kind of wild to me, it was like one day a veil was lifted and I was suddenly able to just be normal about food and exercise and It’s still so strange to me because I don’t remember a time before now that I was able to that, I’ve struggled with this since I was very small.

It’s a big deal, emotional even; I can actually recover from these things that have caused me so many struggles. It’s been so long since I started trying to recover, literal years, but I have this indescribable feeling, a change inside me that I can feel and go “I’m getting better, it’s working” and that is so crazy to me because it gives me hope. Yuk. It’s crazy to me that only around a year ago I was mostly bed bound and there seemed no point to continuing to exist, now I feel hope? What on earth happened?

So guess what I’m saying is, even if everything is dark and your world seems hopeless, even if you can’t find it in you to push forward, don’t give up. I can’t promise you that tomorrow will be brighter, but it could be. I hope it is, for everyone.

Anyway, I love you XOXO